it's nights like these i remember my past.. as if i'm reliving it all over again; just better in a way. where i sometimes miss everything i used to have...i miss everything i used to be. and it's all different now, i know. but i do miss it a lot at time. though, i am thankful it is over. it's just hard to explain this feeling i get. maybe it's because i am happy again or i do the things i used to do then?  ugh... and it's like, when i'm at justin's house, i know we should be together like how brieanna and josh should be together. but even though we should; there is something blocking us. his girlfriend, my life... something. i don't want justin in that way anymore. i'm over that. it's just for a few years now i knew how it was meant to be and now that we are older it isn't going to happen soon though we can and might slip up with a kiss or a sex here and there but it will not, ever happen. just a weird thought of craving him. knowing him and i have history wondering when our future will come a pond.