:/

i know i don't like that he is always clingy, but lately that he hasn't been i feel like i'm losing him.. and i don't know. i know i'm not; but he is too touchy when he is at my house and i can't stand it. and i don't feel like we suit each other's lives... it's sad that now all of a sudden i don't believe we could last..
but i want him, i do! and i'm not sure if i'm feeling this because i think he lusts me.. or because of justin. and yes, justin, ugh.. what is wrong with me? do i always do this? will i forever fo this? i do this to myself, but tell me why? i don't understand.. mayeb he just won't last with me, because he doesn;t know my bad side, the monster in me, that i hate when he feels me.. if i could say what i want to say.. it'd change every now and then because i can't keep the things i get when i'm with him than when i'm not with him by me.. and sometimes i do, sometimes i don't. time changes everything.