into the sea- as cities burn

i kind of am in love with this song<3

And it's alright, it's alright
And it's alright, it's alright
Everybody is a failure in this light
And it's okay, it's okay
And it's okay, it's okay
Underneath it nobody's back is straight

And I tried to stop it when
I saw your posture start to bend
But honey it was not mine to lift

Go throw yourself into the sea
Go throw yourself into
Throw yourself into the sea

And it's alright, it's alright
And it's alright
I can't make it right
Somebody put a bad lens in your eye
And you try to shed your skin
When you saw yourself in it so thin
But you only shed your blood
When you climb out, you can't climb back in

Go throw yourself into the sea
Go you throw yourself into the sea
Though we don't need a mountain moved
We just want to move ourselves
Take us somewhere, take us somewhere
Anywhere else

Go throw yourself into the sea
Go throw yourself into the sea

It's alright, it's alright
It's alright, it's alright

Go throw yourself into the sea
Go throw yourself into the sea
Though we don't ever see you move,
slowly the wind turns you to sand
in the hands of children on the shore

:/

i know i don't like that he is always clingy, but lately that he hasn't been i feel like i'm losing him.. and i don't know. i know i'm not; but he is too touchy when he is at my house and i can't stand it. and i don't feel like we suit each other's lives... it's sad that now all of a sudden i don't believe we could last..
but i want him, i do! and i'm not sure if i'm feeling this because i think he lusts me.. or because of justin. and yes, justin, ugh.. what is wrong with me? do i always do this? will i forever fo this? i do this to myself, but tell me why? i don't understand.. mayeb he just won't last with me, because he doesn;t know my bad side, the monster in me, that i hate when he feels me.. if i could say what i want to say.. it'd change every now and then because i can't keep the things i get when i'm with him than when i'm not with him by me.. and sometimes i do, sometimes i don't. time changes everything.

total babe:)

want.

<3

so, cody's been texting me so i finally texted back and he wants to chill so i told him i have a boyfriend and he still wants to hangout with me:) cool.

but now that i do have my retainer back in my mouth after months of it not being in, my teeth hurt like a mofo! and i hope the pain goes away in a few days.. ugh! but yeah, i guess it is all worth it, i've had braces for four years, i want some perfect looken' teeth! but yeahh.


beauty is pain.

this is my retainer, it glows in the dark, be jelly(:

lol!

<3

taco bell(:

she is sooooo pretty!

this is how i do my hair most days.

ugh,

now that i know he still loves me and has feelings for me still it's weird.. because i am happy with somebody else, i have feelings with somebody else. but a bit of me does feel guilty for that somebody not being him...
but i called it. i said "i'm going to find somebody else and when i do, it won't be you and you won't be okay with it." and look, i found somebody, who isn't him, and he isn't okay with it.
but i'm not going to leave duke for that, i like him wayy too much.. kind of love him? i say kind of because i don't want to as well as i'm not sure if i do or not. but my feelings for him are strong, so nothing will break them.

sorry i'm with somebody who isn't you<3

"i like to have holy candles in my room, they make me feel better about myself." lol!

yummmm.

see this? i'm happy(: