hmmm,

you know, even though Jake and i didn't really 'talk' i knew how he was. i was just hoping Cody would have been the same way; with it.
just the feeling of knowing i'm being wanted was great. the feelings of having someone not wanting to let go makes you feel wanted a lot.
Ryan let me go too many times too soon without a fight :/ and i always wanted someone to just fight for me... but now that i am just here, alone, i feel like that's how it always will be. i'll always be alone without a boyfriend or a guy who wants me as much as i want him..
and i am ONLY almost seventeen, why do i feel like this?
i shouldn't feel like i'm not wanted or like i don't belong....
what is wrong with me; why does nobody want me?