i just am not sure what to do about my past.. and this is really hard for me, tough for me to get over it, and not be ashamed. how do i tell him? or not tell him? i know it'll be hard if he asks me but i know i won't lie to him. it's my past that will linger on my chest hard for me to accept this monster i have made.
it's my past i'm trying not to ruin my future.
but i'm just worried if he finds out weather i tell him or not that he'll be so mad and not be okay with me and just judges me, i need some advice, i just don't really know who to go to.. hmmm, it's getting close, now that i'm thinking about it i want a relationship yeah, but am i ready for one with how my life is going and everything that is happening? maybe...